What the fuck is going on??

I am so high right now, I am in the pursuit of the understanding of what's important to me, I know I don't have the strength to speak the truth out. But, I am pretty sure this simple truth will make a better human, I am trying to improve and learn from my mistakes. 

I am not sure what should I do, Make my father Proud. Take a job and smoke my entire life in dope, secrets, and cigarettes. Or I pursue my startup and walk alone, without the luxury of making mistakes. Or else say fuck off to everything and find a girlfriend. Man, this is so hard!!!!

I think I am torn in between family and moving alone. I love them but still. 

In fact, the dream of being a renegade is compelling and cool but it fucks out my mind. It kills the peace of mind entirely. 

Chalo I am bored now, fuck off.