Quarantine is hard!

I was watching random youtube videos and an episode of the Patriotic Act on Indian Politics is playing in the background.  Man, Its 3 AM in the morning and I haven't been working for the last two weeks. Its been in and out. I am still struggling to quit masturbation and smoking. 

I am anxious, uncomfortable, and angry. I have no idea what I am writing but still, I am writing cause I love typing on my new laptop. I have been talking with a girl on tinder, she is hot you know but I fucked up as usual. Days are passing, I am not sure what I am doing lately and more importantly why am I doing, what I am doing. Existential crises are still on.

I am still comparing myself with people, but that's improving. This thought of having a romantic relationship still keeps popping up. I am not sure how to deal with it. Many of you will argue if there's anyone to read Its not wrong to have a romantic relationship. I know, but I am not sure why do I want a relationship. If sex and the pride you get for having a girlfriend is the reason then I would probably want ti to stay away from it. If the reason is Sex then probably I would want to date someone who is comfortable with this idea. 

Chalo, I should probably stop now, cause I am feeling sleepy but also have to do some work. 
Good Night, If someone finds this article mistakenly.