Path Never Taken

 
I feel lost. I am not sure what I am feeling. Listening to Iris makes me cry. I miss her smile. I miss the cab ride home. My eyes are full, maybe because I miss her. Maybe I feel lonely. Maybe I am not sure what I am doing with life. 

Breaking up with Aashna, I am not sure what I really did there. I had reasons, but were they enough. Did I play with her feelings. I really miss she saying aye, her gigling. They way she used to say CUTU.

Life feels unnecessary difficult right now. I am not sure if I will feel the same or feel love for anybody ever. Life after Aashna, feels transactional. 

Life feels about optimisation. Life with her was more living I guess. Walks, Concerts, ton of laughter. 

Maybe we might have made it work, but the sad part is I will never know. Path that I never took. Path I never explored. I am sure its going to haunt me or maybe not.